As I look out of my window
The small one, that’s clouded by blackness
A blackness stronger than hate
My thoughts drift off thinking of days before this
This torturous life I live in now

I used to be so full of happiness
I was content and proud of myself
But no, not now
Not after you destroyed those emotions
The emotions I lived for

I loved you
I thought you cared
How could you be so cold?
Will you ever return to finish off the remains of this life?
That’s empty and alone

Here sitting in the prison you built just for me
I can’t help but feel every ounce of pain
The agony you’ve bestowed upon me

Shackled to the wall
You laugh at me
I cry out in vain
I need you to feed me the love you once did
I love you, I hate you

What’s left to feel?
I’ve felt bliss
Now I feel hatred
Is there anything worse than this?
I’m going to give up hope

I keep feeling you returning to me
Picking out my crumbs from the ashes
But what must I do if you do not return?
For I know you won’t
This is reality

You told me to give in
You aren’t going to hurt me
Look what happened in the end
I said it from the beginning
But then I started to believe in us
I gave in wholeheartedly
I had to
I needed to feel you in me
I fell into you
As you dug into my heart
Digging and digging deep
Tearing out tissues I needed to live
Then you left your emblem
Branded to the inside of me
Forever embedded for me to remember

I’m not going to wait much longer
The pain is so unbearable
All this enclosed
Is driving me towards the end
My life is erupting
It’s clean-up time
Come and clean up the remains of this life
Or I’m going to destroy it all myself

I can’t go on without you
This is your final chance

I cannot wait any longer
This pain is too much to live with
Even this window knows how I feel
Being clouded by a blackness that is stronger than hate
Such an evil glow around it
This pain must end
Now and forever
I’m still open for your one last chance
But I’ve faced reality
The blackness inside of me is much stronger than hate
What you’ve done to me is permanent
And you aren’t going to come to my aid

I hope you live happily ever after
When I’m gone
It’s not like you will mourn over me
I was never real to you
Someday I just hope you feel what I’ve felt
This blackness inside
That is stronger than hate
That’s when you’ll finally realize how bad you hurt me
A person can only take so much
And I have been pushed over the limit
I can’t even look back and see it anymore
I’m too far into it
With this I leave you
Good riddance, is what you’re probably thinking
But your aren’t alone
I’m thinking it too