With red, bloodshot eyes from the tears that you have brought forth
And with quivering hands from the fear that you have caused me
I stand up straight and strong
Knowing that my feet still ache from the miles I have walked for you
I hold position
Trying to ignore the burning in my chest
From the pain you have inflicted upon me

And even now
I fight to hide my bloodstained skin from the knife
Which you've stabbed in my back countless times

I speak my peace with meaningless words
For my soul is empty
My life you seized from existence
But I am still here
Although secluded and disguised
And when my knees give way and I fall to the floor
Will you be there to pick me back up?
That will be when I can no longer stand my ground

Come save me from my fear
My fear of losing what has already gone
My fear of not tasting what is already devoured
My fear of not hearing your solitary words, your novel has ended
I've feared this day for entirely too long
Come back into these arms that need you

I know at one time you loved me
That's how I've been so strong
But I can't help but wonder what went wrong
Did she really take all of that from us?
When she held you that night?
There is no way I'll believe that
She couldn't have taken something so purified and unharmed
And rip it to shreds with one look into her eyes

We can live as we always planned
All of those late night phone calls ago

Who am I kidding?
You won't return to me
I was second best all along
I never had you wholly
You used me as a fallback
Until you could again reach her
She's the one you've always wanted
I see it now, no more denial

Picking up a picture of you
I think about the past
I can now see the glow in your eyes fading
I shatter the glass and frame
I can't bear to look at you now
For all the lies
And the deception you bestowed upon me
I can’t believe I loved you

Snatching a shard of glass from the picture of you
I hold it to my wrist
Should I go for you?

I can't bear to think how bad this will be
For everyone else who actually loves me
I hate to think it all could have worked out if I would have come before her
You don't need her, I know she'll hurt you
Oh well
Nobody ever listens until it’s way too late

Under any circumstance if you feel you must come back
Please come to this graveyard where I have ascended
I will be under the rock marked "I died for love"
And you can speak
For there I will hear you better than I've ever heard you before
I will hear you in my lifeless slumber
Finally at ease and finally at rest
Without you