Gasping to pull free
From this tangled canopy you’ve strapped within me
I dream of something pure

You’ve created an exodus in my essence
Sending everything that I once knew
Into sudden oblivion

Caressing my soul, you touch me
But just as quickly as you’ve come
You’re long gone again

I can never keep hold of you too long
If only I was no longer chained
To your dungeon walls

I glare at you within myself
And dread the abrupt halt
Of breathing you want to expose unto me

I would sneer at you until my eyes bled
But you are just too strong

You squeeze me
Like you would carve out your retinas
Before letting me see harm
But at the same moment
You squeeze me
Like you wish to let my guts come oozing out of my pores

If I hadn’t already swallowed my tongue
I would try pleading or screaming
But now it’s even difficult to keep oxygen in my lungs

I am inside myself with nothing to see
And I am opening from the inside
By your throat-lashing torture

You have brought with you
In your ingress
A deadly form of bioterrorism

I feel the spasms in my muscles contracting
And I feel my skin become flaky and numb
The blood-laced coughs come like hurls
As I fight to keep my organs in place

You touch my lips but I can’t sense you
For my lips are rotting away
The catastrophe of the black plague
Sweeps me up in his arms
And takes me down into his icy hell

I acquire the botulism as it seeps through my veins
Like road kill; I lay gasping
I feel the sweat as it pours from my brow
And with a glassy eye I stare at your face

I have too many mind lapses and seizures
So simultaneously
I cannot speak or process anymore

I know though somehow, that you are slowly killing me
And I accept my final breath
As I pass through an inevitable destiny

If only I was strong enough to lash back out at you
And cause you mind-boggling pain
I would sear through your flesh
Like the ripping of wet paper

I would squeeze each of your eyes
With my bare hands
Until they both have burst into two bloody strings
Hanging from the hideous holes in your face

I would slowly carve out your nasal cavity
With a knife you once used on my execution
Each of your fingers would devastatingly disappear

I would not leave you to die
I would leave you to suffer an amount of pain
The brain cannot begin to process
Nor can begin to compare to any pain you’ve felt previously
In your life’s memory and subconscious

But alas…
I cannot escape your heart
I have fallen into the trap
You placed for me way too long ago

I would be saying goodbye today
As you let my neck be severed by your gallows
But I can no longer understand any of what I am told or given

I see upon the ground
A large amount of grey matter
But I can’t decide where it came from

I don’t wish to be confused anymore
I don’t wish to be in this overwhelming pain anymore
Just let me die like you have
Instead of all the lacerations
You’ve placed upon my being

You may not be attacking me
With the bare flesh of your naked hand
But the stone that bears your name
Is the most powerful biological weapon…
On the face of this earth