Chaotic enlightenment
Paralyzed realization
Too far to stray
Falling from life

Now I look in your eyes
Seeing someone who used to be me
What did I do wrong?
I can no longer make this right

You took a life I used to take for granted
I didn't think twice
It dissolved through my fingers
After I broke it in my hands

I seem so normal
Feeling nothing at all
Who's to know I blew it?
I look the same outside

I wanted the best of both worlds
What I got was reality
I can't pretend I'm fine
Everything will soon be, though
What's denial?
Other than a friend

Friends don't exist
I can't hurt another like that again
I've given up

That scares me
I'm afraid
I've bestowed this pain to them
And to you
I hate myself

What does that help?
Pity?
No, not now
No use
Forgive me
What's to forgive?
Fuck sorrow
I bear the pain
I take you for granted
I took them for it too
What am I?

Mirrors lie
Your eyes can't show me this
Your arms are only my strength
Who needs you?
I do
I can't do this anymore
I need an escape
Not one you can give me
This time

I could easily end this pain
But what would that do?
You'd cry
They'd cry
I'd still be the one who'd die

Stupidity
Vexation in this tone
Lock me up
Throw away the key
Damn me to hell
Or just give me the will
Pacify my thoughts
Let me live through you

Driven past all odds
I feel remorse
Free me from my entity

I hate my life
Give me back my sanity
Paranoia sends me shivering through the fog

This is too much
I can't be alone
I'm scared of myself
I am capable of everything
Time is all I really need
Time I will not allow to grow
The wall of spikes is closing in
Darkness is building in me
My thoughts circle the sun
Burning me
Stabbing me
Doing away with me

I am dangerous
I won't live through this
My wrists call my name
My veins try to show their faces
Blood is surfacing
Even you can't help me now

I used to believe that you raised the sun
I never knew it would end this way
I am the holder of my life
I caused this all
Not you
Not them
But I
And with that I must destroy
It won't be the first time
But I must live up to my name