In a world that blooms dead flowers
I try to imagine your face again
Trapped in an oblivion that lasts hours
I dig to escape the decaying within

Do you remember the chipping paint
On the wall behind us?
The wall you could only see clearly
When you looked right through me?

Dragged behind and shattered upon the earth
I am the cans that drag behind a newlywed’s car
Just to be later removed from their life and forgotten
As you have removed me from yours

You detonate a bomb locked inside my disciple
Explosions erupt around my hexagonal world
Not to be mistaken, but you drive me insane
I cannot escape you
You are as inevitable as the rain

Denying all that is naturally accepted
I try to learn again from birth
Everything I see becomes a walking nightmare
And I am again shattered upon the earth

What more to you ever was I than dirt?
I’m asking, was I even a substance to you
Or just another face in the crowd?
How could I be like the others
When this blood won’t stop streaming from my tired eyes?

Drowning in a sea that is locked into death
The pain is dissipating
I am weakening slowly, despite how strong I was
And somehow you are still looking into my eyes

The gun is cocked and loaded
But what a way to go
I hold it and it’s heavy in my fragile hands
As I bring it slowly up to my mouth

Sobbing my last uttered word
I choke out your name
I pull my finger slowly back
And feeling the shockwave of the blast
The last thing I see before I fall
Is my cold blood, splattered against the wall