A sudden chill awakens me from my slumber
The pain lingers from my past
I'm going blind within this hate
I'm not so used to pain
Life is perfect in my suicidal fairy tale

I run my last bath, my final cleansing
Before my tortured end
In my tub of rose petals
My water turns red

You wouldn't want to know what it’s like to be me
The things I've gone through make angels cry
That’s why I’ve drawn tears to your eyes so many times

I won’t get better
Killing everybody slowly
Until I finally wither myself
I am the hopeless one and it is people like you…
Who kill me even more

It is the general hate, not directed towards anything
Or anyone in particular
Hate for God, and myself

Born again through tears
Ready to be baptized in my blood
I shall be condemned to Hell
Forgive me Lord, for I have committed
One of the greatest sins
And a martyr I will have made when I'm threw with my trials

But the promise keeps me from my duties
Holding me gently against you
And your love keeping me sane, and safe
From the red water in my last bath

So when I start dying slowly
Because you won't let me go
Then it will be your guilty conscience, not mine
For your love is my enemy and I fight to escape
Its deadly embrace...

Welcome to my hell!

My love for you keeping me entombed in my dark, lonely prison
And the key dangling, from your hand ready to be snatched
Reminding me of how I feel about you
About how much I love you
Reminding me of how I can't have you again
Feeling this cold sensation of not being worth your time

The cold steel is warm now with new blood
My last bath is over
And finally I can sleep