SELECTED GUILT

Scarcely and faintly
I hear the pounding in my chest
I am relieved I guess
Only knowing the inevitable

Look at me now
This tired soul
Sorrow and guilt
All pent up inside destroying me

You say I love you
With such care and emotion
I say it back
You take me so seriously
I make it so
You know it so
Or so you think

Hurting and corrupting
I'm killing you softly
You don't even know it
But you're dying
The more you fall in love
The more it is you will hurt
In the end

I am no good
I am less than a woman
I am nothing
I am trash
Because of what I’m doing to you

Look into these faded eyes
This blotchy face
Hear my tear-soaked I love you

I truly mean that now
Too bad it's too late
I cannot believe I fell in love
After so long
Giving in wasn't as hard as I thought
After I realized what it was like
Without you

I have come to this conclusion
Because I now want the best for you
I will leave you with this solitary goodbye
A note simply saying I love you
Hoping you finally realize what I did

I am fading fast
And I just want to go home
I want to run to you
Hold you
But every time I do so I feel worse
This is the only way out now
Goodbye…